Overdue

 Hey there

I am a mother now of one lil cute little baby

Im contented and blessed yet sometimes i feel the sense of resentment filling up in me

Of all the plans that i cant have them the same 

Of certainties a lot of them of how the future will be

Of what is there left of me to believe and carry on

I dont understand it myself of why im keep having this episodes. Seems that im always living in the past worrying for future. Ridiculously unnecessary 

I made a choice and people dont understand the way i am.

I can no longer have any expectations towards me or people around. That way i can leave freely and without feeling betrayed or left behind but not most of the times. I tried and will try harder