A baby

 Everyone is happy to have newborn

Im the opposite. Been feeling tad of sadness and not knowing whats is it for me. Inconsolable crying 😢 most of the time.  Tried to be okay but being pretentious doesnt help.

What am i lacking

What do i need to be ok

Why am i having this episodes

What am I supposed to do?

Where do i did wrong from here?

Why this feeling and why me?

The help that was offered not the one i want

Can i be choosy or i have to submit myself entirely

Been secretly sad through pregnancy my newborn take after me

I guess this is life not easy to unwind. Cause everything is permanent. I cant have my dreamy thoughts just have to live this miserable life i have. Till then