Wasted

 Well been such a long time since i wrote

I was busy fulfilling this life as I imagine it to be and i failed . Cause all i ended up with is still frustration and burnouts. Spent a lot of money to satisfy myself ,  buried myself in happy self conscious each time , not to have any expectations really done end up well. Life needs to struggle and when you are not and just lay back and enjoying the luxury life you slacked off and this time real bad . Wrong timing. 

Malaysia is a joke and my life is not much of different. More or less the same. Ive been living my life as much as possible trying to make it as comfortable as possible with my earnings and try to serve others and unfortunately it comes all to my expenses where i neeed to give more than i should. 

YOU HAVE ONE JOB FRICKING DO YOUR JOB!

thats my motto nothing comes in easy no person know what they need to do on the first day of a job even that all the manual have beed read. You cannot depend on others to always be there everyday ,every time . Sometimes i ponder am i being too kind too giving too much?

IS IT TOO LATE TO STOP NOW? CAUSE MAN IM TIRED. 

I wish i could go back and undone everything in life to start over preferably not to be me. Not remembering what and who  i am. Start a new life . Be a new person . Maybe it is better if i was born as a failure. Then in know i wont be having this luxury to write the freeeom to write the freemind to think and express my feelings maybe it is better that way cause again i am tired. 

Soon i will try to be okay and this cycle will repeat itself . I hope i am strong enough to face this one more time. 

Regaqrds

Mmnat