Life
As i want to feel the livelihood of being a carefree woman i am cuffed with lots of responsibility and it strangle me alive but i survive. The cycle repeats.
In life there are so many stories . so many you cant even compare your unfortunates with others exactly. And people can judge whether it is really bad or not by simply read/listen to your story if they are keen enough to listen i suppose.
Everyone is struggling to meet the expectation of others . At some point everybody will. All will do the same .
I remember one time i was so mad at Qutbi ( it was something that Qutbi dont want to remember i suppose) but of course being the girl you will have the honour of remembering everything.
It was that MPAJ run when we had a real big fight and for me it was the end of our relationship.
i have even shared the song that i intend to share with Mira to him and shit he made a cover of him singing the song and sent to me (lol, i was supposed that i want to give me silent treatment for like forever). It was lagu Syamel - HIDUP DALAM MATI.
I live up to the expectation of me being treated the way i want it but it happened otherwise and it broke me up like hell.
Maybe the reason i accidentally shared the song because his name still in the whatsapp chat. HE always live by his rules and i respect that just that i want him make amend for me previously as the love ones, different attention, different ways but we started of as best friend so what do u expect? but we were so young and he is a promising boy he cant assure that for me and thought im being ridiculous but guess what baby, i am still am, :D
We had a real big fight and i was in tears for 3 straight days. i would just called my other bestfriend and cried . Well not being able to tell any story whilst crying they will just give comfort and advise me to take proper meal. but they will make sure im ok for the day then they float or ghosted me. Thats okay cause i need that emotional support when i need it. That is what a friend should do. i could not ask for more. i restrained myself to not be in contact with Qutbi which i did but he occasionally asked for wellbeing which i replied in like 3 days delay.
That doesnt stop him as i thought i lose him since we are no longer contacting as much as usual after the incident then he came back and we get better. We changed the way we are. He made a lot of efforts which i know till now he is still trying his best to make sure im happy cause i am not an easy person. Thank you love 💏
People make amend for life to meet others expectations. i changed a lot to be with Qutbi. slowly i tried to burn down all the bad habits which i cant recall but mostly i am a curser. A real jerk. Still a bit ( since working in stressful environment- Singaporean ) lol
The early phase that we met, Qutbi was with his gf and i was heartbroken and we get along too fast like real fast. I remembered that sanggup tunggu dia kat Jusco Bukit Tinggi for like 2 hours since he dont have a car ( kak baby pakai, masa tu dia pakai Wira) Then sebab dia takut dh lama tunggu he came with Kak baby and i met her sister for the first time . kononnya kakak dia nk beli roti kat Lavender. Time tu Qutbi dh balik awal rumah and im still kat matrix. Then he texted buat apa and i said nothing so he invited for movie i said OK since movie is my thing 🎬📽✌😁 We watched movie apa tak ingat then i went back by bus. I was so independent you know ( will story later all the hardship i went through and all the effort when im with him haahahahhahaahahahaahahah )
When i said okay and i took cab to Pekan Banting, then rode a bus to Bukit tinggi Klang and suddenly he dont have a car. I have to wait like 2 hour plus but i started wandering around. I never thought that we will occasionally hangout a lot and then be more than friends.
Though at that time dont have any feelings towards him cause he still has a gf or crush that i really hate lol and yes still am. He was famous back then i was under the impression that this is the kind of guy i can only be friend because i hate this kind of boy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA which was true but then look what life had gotten me. I am still a happy kid 😊
hence i expect me to be better be it work, i want an upgrade, be it myself be it wealth be it for money for opportunity and for better family life.
I am so grateful that Allah has jodohkan Qutbi with me and i hope that we will keep on complimenting each other in our live forever. Semoga Allah limpahkan rezeki ke atas keluarga kami , memberkati hidup kami dan dipanjangkan umur untuk beribadah.
Life is a struggle.
Every second of it.
Stop and you will miss life.
Regards,
MMNAT
In life there are so many stories . so many you cant even compare your unfortunates with others exactly. And people can judge whether it is really bad or not by simply read/listen to your story if they are keen enough to listen i suppose.
Everyone is struggling to meet the expectation of others . At some point everybody will. All will do the same .
I remember one time i was so mad at Qutbi ( it was something that Qutbi dont want to remember i suppose) but of course being the girl you will have the honour of remembering everything.
It was that MPAJ run when we had a real big fight and for me it was the end of our relationship.
i have even shared the song that i intend to share with Mira to him and shit he made a cover of him singing the song and sent to me (lol, i was supposed that i want to give me silent treatment for like forever). It was lagu Syamel - HIDUP DALAM MATI.
I live up to the expectation of me being treated the way i want it but it happened otherwise and it broke me up like hell.
Maybe the reason i accidentally shared the song because his name still in the whatsapp chat. HE always live by his rules and i respect that just that i want him make amend for me previously as the love ones, different attention, different ways but we started of as best friend so what do u expect? but we were so young and he is a promising boy he cant assure that for me and thought im being ridiculous but guess what baby, i am still am, :D
We had a real big fight and i was in tears for 3 straight days. i would just called my other bestfriend and cried . Well not being able to tell any story whilst crying they will just give comfort and advise me to take proper meal. but they will make sure im ok for the day then they float or ghosted me. Thats okay cause i need that emotional support when i need it. That is what a friend should do. i could not ask for more. i restrained myself to not be in contact with Qutbi which i did but he occasionally asked for wellbeing which i replied in like 3 days delay.
That doesnt stop him as i thought i lose him since we are no longer contacting as much as usual after the incident then he came back and we get better. We changed the way we are. He made a lot of efforts which i know till now he is still trying his best to make sure im happy cause i am not an easy person. Thank you love 💏
People make amend for life to meet others expectations. i changed a lot to be with Qutbi. slowly i tried to burn down all the bad habits which i cant recall but mostly i am a curser. A real jerk. Still a bit ( since working in stressful environment- Singaporean ) lol
The early phase that we met, Qutbi was with his gf and i was heartbroken and we get along too fast like real fast. I remembered that sanggup tunggu dia kat Jusco Bukit Tinggi for like 2 hours since he dont have a car ( kak baby pakai, masa tu dia pakai Wira) Then sebab dia takut dh lama tunggu he came with Kak baby and i met her sister for the first time . kononnya kakak dia nk beli roti kat Lavender. Time tu Qutbi dh balik awal rumah and im still kat matrix. Then he texted buat apa and i said nothing so he invited for movie i said OK since movie is my thing 🎬📽✌😁 We watched movie apa tak ingat then i went back by bus. I was so independent you know ( will story later all the hardship i went through and all the effort when im with him haahahahhahaahahahaahahah )
When i said okay and i took cab to Pekan Banting, then rode a bus to Bukit tinggi Klang and suddenly he dont have a car. I have to wait like 2 hour plus but i started wandering around. I never thought that we will occasionally hangout a lot and then be more than friends.
Though at that time dont have any feelings towards him cause he still has a gf or crush that i really hate lol and yes still am. He was famous back then i was under the impression that this is the kind of guy i can only be friend because i hate this kind of boy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA which was true but then look what life had gotten me. I am still a happy kid 😊
hence i expect me to be better be it work, i want an upgrade, be it myself be it wealth be it for money for opportunity and for better family life.
I am so grateful that Allah has jodohkan Qutbi with me and i hope that we will keep on complimenting each other in our live forever. Semoga Allah limpahkan rezeki ke atas keluarga kami , memberkati hidup kami dan dipanjangkan umur untuk beribadah.
Life is a struggle.
Every second of it.
Stop and you will miss life.
Regards,
MMNAT
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