All I ever am

Mostly i did nothing much today . Or yesterday.
It was so boring like the 2 days meant nothing much. have no purpose and most of the time even i was running errands more or less felt like wasting time. Actually i felt that a lot of times not specifically these two days. Been trying to deny these feeling while back livin the life have good vibes but you old habits haunt. Maybe im just really dont have friends to talk to and it is true.

So it is true life with no or less money is definitely quite meaningless. There is actually nothing you can do and ended up wasting time thinking or planning for something that you cant be certain of. Kinda wasted in a way .

Dont tell me to hudznuzon cause im tired of that shit. This is not about it. I dont need that advice I think.

Or just maybe i needed the cry cause that is all i am.




That is what i destined to be for the rest of my life to weep over the unfortunate and be okay the next day

So God let me live this pretentious life so that i can worship and be better .
If that was what happened well you got me and i cant utter anything cause there is a part of me feeling that what bullshit does makes me stronger.

Just who i am