Just so

Well hello ,
someone said that dah lama  update blog,
Well in between shift working days and petang some more rasa mcm masa terbuang begitu sahaja
Also im out of topics to discuss
Of late, ive heard a lot of stories, people getting married, people having scandals and so happy talking bout it and also many more that i cant and i dont want to recall. i just wanna let it slip like always .

for me relationship is something that i valued.
It is not easy to have it
Why i say that?
We invested our time, our efforts on stranger at the beginning
And that time prolonged and lengthen as we are trying to know each other.
Right?
To really understand someone just by their gestures, or replies,
To acknowledge we know something is not okay when it is not
To have someone's back and not expecting anything in return
To love someone more than your family
So yes it is not easy
To anybody who may have thought life is short so live life to the fullest i agree
but dont waste time on somebody that doesnt worth the time.
Cause you can buy anything in the world but not time.

Semua ada ups and downs and keburukan masing2 that maybe still disorokkan.
Thats somehow for sure i dont know maybe just tunggu masa meletups or wtv.
Me and Qutbi awalnya have really bad communication problem ( really bad ones) and also temper problem. I am definitely the emotional type that always rants (and Qutbi will said im mengungkit and the fight went on and on)
Thing is lelaki mana yang x temper and ego (given same age and time)
Perempuan mana yang x emo (marah itu ini, sometimes tinggi suara, some perempuan even worse, merajuk nk pujuk kena beli hadiah ke apa then baru okay) Ive seen worst. Sometime kita dengar sebelah pihak sebab tu kawan kita nampak one side jahat but the side yg kita x dengar?
Thing is how bad the situation is? Too bad? can you fix it? Is it worth the time to favour your ego than your loved ones?

Learn to belajar terima orang the way they are. Slowly adapting and make it better for both. We did it eventually and still in the learning curve.
i must say that as we grow older we learn the hard way what relationship is
i know it is tough for us to be together
For you to keep up with me , you have said that
A lot to sacrifice for the loved ones
and for that, I love you even more
For all the time cherish together i am forever grateful
For everything that you made , that makes me smile and to love you everyday, i hope we keep doing that till we grow old :D

For the kesabaran you have each time i lose my temper, for each time awak mengalah when i was high as hell , like i just wanna let everything out  (even sometimes awak pun malas dh nak layan which was dulu you will just le me be sad, now sometimes a lil bit lels) i am thankful for that too baby
For small small thoughts of having a lil surprise i am more than happy like small tokens from your jobs, paying your shares and mine when we dated  :), include me in your future plans :) and thinking of me everytime (eh yeke haahah)
Well i love you too! You are not alone#YNWA we are togetheer
I am sorry if i annoyed you everyday, well i will continue to for many more years sayang haahah
i am trying to be less annoying, less clingy to my boyfriend so that you'll have a life too
But at times , if i just cant be less annoying less clingy, i hope you can understand that i will be extra annoying and you have tried to be okay with that. For that i love you even more baby :D

For your time, your trust, your love, your support, your thoughts, and your body (eh)

Please stay forever.

I love you sayang

With love,

Couldbe~mmnat