Loser

I think im i love,
Yes i am,
Im pretty sure of it since i have those geeky smile on my face,
I talk to myself a lot,
I wrote poems,
I wrote his name in my diary,
Everything seems so magical,

Then lately,
Ive sense a bit change of pace,
His pace,
A lot actually,
Am i losing him?
Ignorance is one thing,
Supreme one-sided love is one thing.
Im having a very hard time to deal with it.
So please.
Am i winning? or I am losing you.